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Hi, all. It's been difficult lately sitting down to type anything coherent. Life feels very out of control right now and some of the explanations don't feel right describing in every tacky detail. Also I have been concentrating on keeping a positive attitude. I think we all have our periods of like this. I am certainly no saintly exception. I have developed a staph infection that is on my face, of all places, and while I do like to think I have been pretty good about not being TOO vain about it, I would be lying to say that wearing giant patches on both cheeks from my eyes to under my chin is not bothersome. Especially in this unrelenting heat. And knowing that there are circumstances that may make it harder than usual to attack. (They expect it to take all summer and then some.) However, this is the first time in my entire life I have had to take an antibiotic or go into public looking "different" and face stares and I still have all of my abilities as far as what I can accomplish in a day and for these I realize I am EXCEEDINGLY blessed. My family has had so few health issues and I know that is not something very many people can take for granted. This is so minor in light of the thousands in more precarious health every single day of their lives. I do realize that.

A bigger difficulty, quite frankly, has been reading blogs about how dirty people's homes are. By comparison with anyone else who CARES what their home look like, I feel certain I could top them and changing that has been exhausting. But we HAVE to. I have lived mid-move since late 2004 (not by choice, but by lot) and our organization has hit rock bottom. Which has messed with my motivation because I THRIVE on organization. So I am afraid the blog must suffer. There are a TON of posts waiting to be written that likely never will. As important as it is to me to maintain this record of our lives, it is right now all I can do to live it well and I have very consciously decided to make that my priority for the summer. So, will I blog anymore? I hope so. But I can't officially announce when or how often or how sporadic it might be. My comments have waned already of late and I am not going to lie and say it hasn't been a disappointment because I enjoy the camaraderie, even if it's in a cyber sense. But I do understand it. I still want to contact a couple of you who live nearby to meet up like we've discussed and I haven't forgotten that. I just know you'll understand me wanting to wait until I have an uncovered face to do it. The Michael Jackson get-up is not my best look. :-)

Other than that, I just want to wish you all a good summer while I get my stuff straightened out. The blog loop I've been a part of is great at relaying all their families' funny antics, so I'll probably drop by now and then when I need a good laugh. That should be fairly regularly.

Now how was that for telling my plans? I guess what I am saying is that I myself am off to figure them out first! Have a safe and happy, lovely summer!